Tuesday, August 14, 2007

A QUEST OF LIFE;Searching for the unknown


Ever since i was a child, my parents would always give me the things i want.
Foods,toys, clothes, everything. i was once a spoiled brat back then i guess.
I was still a kid and i thought i lack nothing.
But not until i grew up.

i started to get confused and puzzled about everything, about my life.
though it seems that i have everything,
but why am i still feeling so incomplete?

way back then,
i came to a point where i started to think,
that i am living in a world full of confusions,
in a world where people are pretending to be someone they're not.
in a world where i think everyone lies,
where everyone would just someday leave me hanging high,
in a world where everyone wants to make me cry.
and that caused me months of sleepless nights.

my everyday memory is haunting me.
and it made me feel so unusual in every way.
is giving up a one way solution of this misery?
what if I'm wrong? but what if I'm right?
questions are tumbling, trembling and rumbling in my mind.
my tired eyes began to cry, without knowing the reason why.
my head was full of "whys". it filled my soul with sorrow.
one morning, i woke up crying.
i noticed a tear in my eyes, and a stain of tears in my pillowcase.

"somebody save this heart of me,
my soul is bleeding constantly!
i need solutions. i need answers!
my dilemma is becoming a great nightmare!
somebody please wake me up from this dream!
somebody help me stop myself from hurting.
because I'm so so tired of crying!"


and suddenly my mind turned blank, and my heartbeat stopped for a while.