Sunday, August 31, 2008

DAMN'it!

HE definitely knows how to HEAL my WOUNDS :)

he can make me cry so hard
he can make me feel so sad
and even can hurt me a lot..

but those are nothing,
compared to the love and happiness he brings :)

DAMN!
and that's why i love you so much :)

HAR HAR


HAHAHA okay.. i so love this pic.. my bf is the one wearing the stripes =) i must admit, i still have a crush on my boyfriend HAHA okay! am i talking shit? HAHA joking.. HE is just Soooooo HOT!!!! HAHAHA he always got me on fire! HAHA okay! END!

what!

14 months..
things are fine..i guess...
same old situation..
I'm happy but I'm tired..
(happy because 'WE' is still existing.. tired, because we are always fighting)
tired of the distance.. tired of our arguments.. nothing's changed really.. i don't know and I'm not sure where and when this would end.. I'm expecting for an ending though.. FOREVER is not on the frame anymore.. and ALWAYS is now unclear..
GAHD! this is so confusing.. "STRESS-FACTOR MAJOR"
DAMN!

is there still hope? =(

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

back into LOVE

i am back into LOVE =D
yeah..
you heard it right dude..

THANK GOD we're alright now..
We're absolutely fine..

things had been so confusing lately..
though we've hurt each other so much,
but we're over it now, and we're back into love. again. (redundant) LOL

Sunday, August 10, 2008

make me happy again :(

and just when i thought that things were ok,
just when things got worst =(

DAMN!

i'm getting so tired :-/

Thursday, August 7, 2008

confusions

'kay! && so i'm confused!
DAMN! this is like so hard ya'kno! i don't know what is happening... i really have no idea at all.. sad ryt? LOL but yah, everything that is happening in my life right now is TRAGIC.. :-/
what can i do? it already happend! tafcuk! and shit! it hurts like hell! ;-/
though i know his feelings are still there and he still loves me but ta'heLL!
i cannot live like this for long?! GAHD!
he's making things harder for me.. i hope he knows that it isn't this easy at all!
maybe for him! but not for me?! =[[
i just wish GOD would answer my prayers =[[

only MIRACLE can save me now =[[
on miracle can save US now.. =(

Sunday, August 3, 2008

missin' him so bad

aloha! LOL oh well. it's been 2 months now since my last post.. =] and it's been a month and 1 week since my boyfriend went back to california =[ haay i thought it'd be a lot easier for me now to adjust since this wasn't his first time to leave,but guess i'm wrong.. i still can't get rid of my lonely nights,and my shedding of tears =( my gas! my gas! HAHA

okay! i'm just trying to make myself smile even for just awhile :(
it has been so hard.. :( better if i'm in school or if i'm busy, in that way i can be able to forget that "he isn't here".. but hardest is when i get to have time alone and everything that we've done will all be flashing back in my mind :(

haay i've already accepted everything about it. about our situation.. but you know, i'm just missing him.. and i'm just wishing that one day, one day he'll never leave again.. i hope everything would be worth it in the end...