Monday, September 29, 2008

and it's all because of you :)

there are three words to describe my life right now:
happy
complete
contented


and there's only one reason behind it all.. it's :
YOU

... it's the 29th day of September. it's out monthsary :) 15th monthsary :)
of all the problems that we've gone through, i never thought nor expected that we could get this far.. :) but you know, as what they say, "what's meant to be, will always find a way"

plus, i realized that everything happens in its own time :) it's not easy to wait for the right time, but know that it will all be worth it then :)

the smile... it's painted on my face :) and i don't wanna get rid of it :) i can live with this feeling forever :) i won't get tired :)

[ OMG! my tears are falling :) tears of joy as i call them :) ]

THIS HAS BEEN THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE..

i've waited for this day to come for almost a year now.. you won't understand what i'm saying i know LOL this is just between me and Bryan :) bleh :P
and now it's here.. i won't let this go :) i'll keep it locked for security :) bleh hahaha

haaaaay i can now say that hey!
THIS IS LOVE....
thanks to you :)
now i know what Love really is :)

YOU ARE MY LIFE :)
thank you for eveything :)

Friday, September 19, 2008

FCuK this LIFE! hate myself!

everything is just falling apart :( and FCUK! it's all because of me! i'm such a DUMB! i lied. about the dance, aboutmy other friendster account which i hid for almost months and months already.
there's this song that i keep on playing for how many times now. it's for him. tha song is about us. the only reason why i don't want the song to stop playin' is because i'm missing him. and i am sorry for my mistake. i don;t know how to explain everything to him. he won't even listen to me now. i'm sorry if i've been so dumb! it wasn't my intention to hurt you. it's not my intention to fool you. i didn't think. and now, i don't know if i can still have you back. and i want you back. i can't stand living wihtout you :( bryan, you're my life. i wish i never did anything stupid! i wish i never lied :( now i'm regreting everything :( im sorry.. i know it's not that easy for you t o forgive me.. i'll wait for that time to come.. just please don't ever ever leave me :(

Thursday, September 4, 2008

what a life!! WTH!!

one whole day of having nothing from him.
FUCK!!

i'm really pissed!
the fact that he knows exactly how i feel when it comes to this matter?!!

"what do you really want huh?!"
just say it straight into my face if you don't need me or at least want me anymore
then i'll leave! bulshit!

.. i am hurt. it seems that i am not that important to him. =(

what is it that i did to you to deserve all this shit!?
i need reasons now!!