Wednesday, December 31, 2008

alive? lifeless maybe :(

there are a lot of things in my mind lately which made me feel anxious.. it has been bothering me all the while and i couldn't help but worry.. i am not able to mingle with people lately, haven't been exposed to the sun for quite a while, never eaten right, and i am concentrating much on my misfortunes and i realized how lifeless i become.. i wasn't aware of my being "DEAD", until a friend, without any hesitations,spoke of truth and told me how my ACTS of DESPERATION becomes visible/noticeable enough and how it dominates my life(as if i still have a life). *Sigh. it hurts to know the truth but i have to face it.okay.. i just can't act normally knowing that i am carrying tons and tons of this sh*t! i am trying but i guess i need a little more *PUSH* on that part.. i just don't have the will to fight anymore.. i am gradually losing every bit of hope that's left.. i am too exhausted.. i wanna give up but i don't see it as a solution, not even an option.. i wanna go on and continue, but how? i don't even know where to begin.. i feel like i am life-deprived..

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

sad christmas :(

okay, it's already 1 am.. december 24, 2008.. DAMN! it's almost x'mas.. unfortunately, i almost didn't noticed it.. and i know for sure why..

haay how i wish i'd be able to spend it with bryan.. like before :(
yah yah, i know it's not possible.. he'll be home.. but not this christmas..
i'm feeling so lonely and sad.. :( never felt this kind of sadness before, swear!

i woke up with an aching heart. and i mean, physical pain. i woke up almost crying.. i'm so sad.. maybe i'm just missing him terribly :(
this isn't good but i need to face this!

on the brighter side..
i'm still thankful because we're ok now. :)
we were like fighting for almost a week straight and thank God the war's over..
:) for now maybe HAHA

ok. he loves me! =p i know right? :))
but i love him more. i swear i love you more than anything..

Monday, October 27, 2008

crahed world and a broken heart

my yesterdays were the happiest of my life..
BRYAN made my life yesterday..

today, my world just crashed
my heart's torn into pieces..

is it really the end of everything?
i have changed.
i have.. for the better..
for him, for our relationship.

he can't appreciate all of what i've done for him..
he doesn't seem to realize the changes i made just for him..
maybe he was blinded by the mistakes i've done
and i felt really really bad,,

i don't wanna lose him.
i can't live without him ..

i used to be his life.
i used to be his everything.

but i guess his feelings faded,
and
I was OUT of his sight anymore :(

I LOVE YOU! you know!
DAMN!!!
don't leave..
please??

Monday, September 29, 2008

and it's all because of you :)

there are three words to describe my life right now:
happy
complete
contented


and there's only one reason behind it all.. it's :
YOU

... it's the 29th day of September. it's out monthsary :) 15th monthsary :)
of all the problems that we've gone through, i never thought nor expected that we could get this far.. :) but you know, as what they say, "what's meant to be, will always find a way"

plus, i realized that everything happens in its own time :) it's not easy to wait for the right time, but know that it will all be worth it then :)

the smile... it's painted on my face :) and i don't wanna get rid of it :) i can live with this feeling forever :) i won't get tired :)

[ OMG! my tears are falling :) tears of joy as i call them :) ]

THIS HAS BEEN THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE..

i've waited for this day to come for almost a year now.. you won't understand what i'm saying i know LOL this is just between me and Bryan :) bleh :P
and now it's here.. i won't let this go :) i'll keep it locked for security :) bleh hahaha

haaaaay i can now say that hey!
THIS IS LOVE....
thanks to you :)
now i know what Love really is :)

YOU ARE MY LIFE :)
thank you for eveything :)

Friday, September 19, 2008

FCuK this LIFE! hate myself!

everything is just falling apart :( and FCUK! it's all because of me! i'm such a DUMB! i lied. about the dance, aboutmy other friendster account which i hid for almost months and months already.
there's this song that i keep on playing for how many times now. it's for him. tha song is about us. the only reason why i don't want the song to stop playin' is because i'm missing him. and i am sorry for my mistake. i don;t know how to explain everything to him. he won't even listen to me now. i'm sorry if i've been so dumb! it wasn't my intention to hurt you. it's not my intention to fool you. i didn't think. and now, i don't know if i can still have you back. and i want you back. i can't stand living wihtout you :( bryan, you're my life. i wish i never did anything stupid! i wish i never lied :( now i'm regreting everything :( im sorry.. i know it's not that easy for you t o forgive me.. i'll wait for that time to come.. just please don't ever ever leave me :(

Thursday, September 4, 2008

what a life!! WTH!!

one whole day of having nothing from him.
FUCK!!

i'm really pissed!
the fact that he knows exactly how i feel when it comes to this matter?!!

"what do you really want huh?!"
just say it straight into my face if you don't need me or at least want me anymore
then i'll leave! bulshit!

.. i am hurt. it seems that i am not that important to him. =(

what is it that i did to you to deserve all this shit!?
i need reasons now!!

Sunday, August 31, 2008

DAMN'it!

HE definitely knows how to HEAL my WOUNDS :)

he can make me cry so hard
he can make me feel so sad
and even can hurt me a lot..

but those are nothing,
compared to the love and happiness he brings :)

DAMN!
and that's why i love you so much :)

HAR HAR


HAHAHA okay.. i so love this pic.. my bf is the one wearing the stripes =) i must admit, i still have a crush on my boyfriend HAHA okay! am i talking shit? HAHA joking.. HE is just Soooooo HOT!!!! HAHAHA he always got me on fire! HAHA okay! END!

what!

14 months..
things are fine..i guess...
same old situation..
I'm happy but I'm tired..
(happy because 'WE' is still existing.. tired, because we are always fighting)
tired of the distance.. tired of our arguments.. nothing's changed really.. i don't know and I'm not sure where and when this would end.. I'm expecting for an ending though.. FOREVER is not on the frame anymore.. and ALWAYS is now unclear..
GAHD! this is so confusing.. "STRESS-FACTOR MAJOR"
DAMN!

is there still hope? =(

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

back into LOVE

i am back into LOVE =D
yeah..
you heard it right dude..

THANK GOD we're alright now..
We're absolutely fine..

things had been so confusing lately..
though we've hurt each other so much,
but we're over it now, and we're back into love. again. (redundant) LOL

Sunday, August 10, 2008

make me happy again :(

and just when i thought that things were ok,
just when things got worst =(

DAMN!

i'm getting so tired :-/

Thursday, August 7, 2008

confusions

'kay! && so i'm confused!
DAMN! this is like so hard ya'kno! i don't know what is happening... i really have no idea at all.. sad ryt? LOL but yah, everything that is happening in my life right now is TRAGIC.. :-/
what can i do? it already happend! tafcuk! and shit! it hurts like hell! ;-/
though i know his feelings are still there and he still loves me but ta'heLL!
i cannot live like this for long?! GAHD!
he's making things harder for me.. i hope he knows that it isn't this easy at all!
maybe for him! but not for me?! =[[
i just wish GOD would answer my prayers =[[

only MIRACLE can save me now =[[
on miracle can save US now.. =(

Sunday, August 3, 2008

missin' him so bad

aloha! LOL oh well. it's been 2 months now since my last post.. =] and it's been a month and 1 week since my boyfriend went back to california =[ haay i thought it'd be a lot easier for me now to adjust since this wasn't his first time to leave,but guess i'm wrong.. i still can't get rid of my lonely nights,and my shedding of tears =( my gas! my gas! HAHA

okay! i'm just trying to make myself smile even for just awhile :(
it has been so hard.. :( better if i'm in school or if i'm busy, in that way i can be able to forget that "he isn't here".. but hardest is when i get to have time alone and everything that we've done will all be flashing back in my mind :(

haay i've already accepted everything about it. about our situation.. but you know, i'm just missing him.. and i'm just wishing that one day, one day he'll never leave again.. i hope everything would be worth it in the end...


Monday, June 2, 2008

yesterday.. was magnificent :]


ok. it's already 6:35 am and i haven't sleep yet. so i'll just tell you the things that happened yesterday orayt?

me and my boyfriend planned to meet yesterday. so yeah he texted me a goodmorning message. then i asked him on what time will he be coming.. then he told me that instead of coming here i'll be the one to visit him at there place nalang. so yah.. he fetch me up. then we went into their house. i met all of the gang! yeah! his cousins, friends, brother, parents, lolo, aunts ang uncles. ok! exciting ryt? haha but shockingly, i didn't feel nervous at all. i felt shy but that's normal ayt?... and i was like so grateful to meet his father. why? ok
it started on our text convos just few nights ago. he told me he isn't ready yet to intriduce me to his father. for the reason that ' don't know ' HAHA :)) seriously, he just told me it. i was so sad that time, because it felt like he isn't sure of me nor even proud that i'm his girlfriend. but then again, what can i do? ryt? so just let it be.. and so it just happened that he introduced me to everyone yesterday. so yeah i was happy! yah STILL happy.. haha i told you! i am such a very shallow person! DUH! orayt! gotta sleep na. mua*

Thursday, May 22, 2008

unforgettable.. really.. :]]


so so many things had happen today. i don't even know where to start now.LOL. ok so here it is.
i slept late yesterday so i woke up late. it was about 11 AM when i got up from bed. i checked on my phone and i still got no message, not even one, from my boyfriend. so yeah! initial reaction was: pissed!! but then initial remains initial. so i decided to just ignore it and then i took my shower. after that and everything, i checked again my phone, i and i sitll got nothing from him. so i chose to just calm myself down. then i lay back in bed again, and oh! my tears fell. GAHD! i am such a cry baby! i cry about petty things. DARN! but hey! it's all because me and my boyfriend already planned that we will meet today, and i thought he couldn't make it so thats why i felt bad.LOL then my phone beeped! i excitedly reached for my phone to see who it's from(the message). so yah i was happy to know that it was from my boyfriend, and there it said that he's coming. so yeah! my mood changed! and i was happy again :]] HAHA praning!. oh! he told me he was with his mother. his mother went to the bank and then went to the grocery store. then he or they, because he's with his brother.. they went into our house. then...... this happened.. that happened.. and haha i was so damn laughing when his brother.. a 21 year-old guy called me "ate" HAHA we were all like laughing! i really felt awkward because i am 2 years younger than his brother hahaha. so yah! haha then... his brother had to go somewhere so he was left with me.we chat, we laugh, and he was always teasing me. always! ugh! but it's alryt haha i find it sweet though LOLOL.

as we were chatting outside our house, i let him see the rosary necklace that he gave me last sunday.. we both have the same rosary necklace. so yeah! i handed it to him and he was saying this (baylo ta, ako suoton ning imo. dal-a na permi hah? aron naay mobantay nimo) "let's swap our necklaces, you keep mine, ill wear yours. you take it anywhere you'll go ok? so that you'll have someone to watch ove you".. (serious..sincere..sweet)

i was so touched.. i felt like crying but ofcourse i didn't :))))))

then he went home. his brother fetch him. i thought that was it. but then............

suddenly my phone beeped again. it's from my boyfriend. he wants me to go to this certain mall because i thought he'll just have to buy something and he wanted me to acompany him. he even told me not to change clothes anymore because i was only wearing shorts, t-shirt, and flip flops. so yeah i immediately hurried myself to go to where he is.
then....
the truth was.. "i am just about to be introduced to his mother" DAMMIT! LOL i was like OMG! i am not in my proper clothes haha but then i can't do anything anymore because i was already there. so yah! i just have to deal with it!..

while meeting his mother i was like a kid hiding on my daddy's back haha i really was so shy talking to his mother. ugh! but that was just it.. his mother's nice. hehe SHE looked so damn CLASSY.. and i looked like A DAMN MESS haha

but then again, i was thankful, because finally, i get to meet his mother. i am happy. and until now, the smile just never fade. i love my boyfriend so much.

all these things that happened today just proves that i am important to him and that he loves me.
i really am so happy. so happy. so so happy.
i won't and will never ever forget this day. it's one of the best days of my life.
thank you so much bryan! for the love and for eveything.
thank you Lord for all of these. for everything.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

feelings :] ♥

I love him. I love him to death. I love him now. I love him always. I love him ‘till end.

yah! I know what ya’ll may think. You may say that “hey! You’re still too young and it’s still too early” for me to say something like this. BOO! The hell I care! What can I do? It’s how and it’s what I definitely feel for him right now. At least for now I guess. I know: “nothing lasts forever”. But as what they say, every rule has its exemption right? LOL! Ugh! I don’t know. I have never really believed in forever. Shoot! Yes! BEFORE! So… yeah?? I guess I do now?? Maybe?? Ugh! WTF! I dunn wanna expect. I dunn wanna assume either! I might just get disappointed right? But! GAHD! I don’t know what’s these all about. Maybe I am just falling head over heels for him. GAHD! I never felt anything like this to anyone at all before! GAHD! I always wanted this to happen. And now it’s here. I just wanna embrace it, just enjoy it and just love it. This is like the best catch! I just want all of these to be like close to perfect if not really perfect ya’kno! Reality check: nothing’s perfect. So yeah!

I don’t feel like letting go. Ta fcuk! Who said about letting go? LOL. I won’t! never!

I believe some things are worth fighting for. So I guess this is it??
Wish me luck?? HAHA

Point is! HEY DUDE!

I’m IN LOVE.

No words can ever define how I just feel right now. It’s worth more than every word I could say, and more than anything I could do.

“no words need to be utter, no actions need to be done”

How we feel for each other. It is what’s important!

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

LOVE daw for me hmmm

LOVE?

well i've got my own opinion about it!

Love for me is simply the best reason and the only reason for EVERYTHING

the reason for our happiness,as well as the reason of our sadness, and our pains.

and most of all? the reason of our LIFE. why we live and how we live is all because of love!
love for your family,for your friends,for your boy/girlfriends, even the love for your work and et cetera .

LOVE.. is a mystery. it is the most wonderful and at the same time unpredictable feeling you'll ever feel. (i sometimes define love as (the most joyful sadness)
wonderful? why ask? DANG! ya'll know how life is when u'r in love right?..
but love is unpredictable. because,
one day it's here, the next day.. GONE.(depende lang naman cguro LOL)
and that just proves that everything is subject to change. because
"the only constant thing in this world is CHANGE"

the only thing you have to know is that
"know how to embrace LOVE when it arrives, and LEARN how to let go when it chooses to LEAVE"

i mean, we can't controll SOME of the things in life. and that "SOME things" there includes LOVE.
yeah! most people find it hard to understand these things..myself included. it really takes a lot of courage for you to ya'kno, LEARN how to ACCEPT the realities of LOVE and the realities of LIFE. (i'm not saying that i've already accepted everything,maybe i am able to say all these things because i already learned,and someone just taught me about this, but really, it's not that easy to accept things when you know it's all that you ever wanted and for some reasons no one can explain, it would just leave you hangin'.. ryt?)(i mean for some)

it's really hard but i think you'll be able to accept everything.in time.(it really takes time)

my own experience. oh haha
you may call me stupid,or dumb or whatever it is that you wanna call me, i don't really care.
i don't even care how long we won't be able to see each other. or how far we are from each other. i'm sill gonna wait you know. because when you love a person, no matter how hard things are, no matter how difficult your situation is, you are willing to accept or lemme say, you always find ways on to how you can accept everything.
ok i always tell him(my bf) this line.

"I'VE ALREADY ACCEPTED EVERYTHING THAT COULDN'T BE, AND I STILL LOVE YOU FREELY"

i have too much drama going on in here haha

lastly,
LOVE is LOVE
you just gotta learn how to deal with it. i mean, you really can't complain.
everything happens for a reason.atleast that's what i believe =D

i got hit byt this

FUNNY HOW THE WORLD SEEMS SO SMALL WHEN YOU GET TO CONTACT YOUR LOVED ONE HALFWAY AROUND THE WORLD THROUGH LETTERS, TEXTS, CHAT, E-MAILS, OR PHONE CALLS..

BUT

STILL THE WORLD IS THAT BIG
BECAUSE
THERE IS NO SUBSTITUTE FOR PERSONAL CONVERSATIONS,
HOLDING HANDS,
HUGS, AND OCCASIONAL KISSES.

i miss him

random thoughts

my thoughts are going random.

i think i have this HUGE problem.(which, who knows what it is) LOL.

it's been almost 2 or 3 weeks that i never stopped wasting my time facing this fuckin' computer.
i haven't eaten right for the past weeks. fortunately, that made me loss my weight. which is a good thing 'coz we'll be going to the beach this thursday(i can now wear bikinis without worrying about my flabs :D if i can though! LOL).. thursday! oh! that would be my parents wedding anniversary.

.. and i got myself into this thought:

I WANNA know how it feels like to get married. what life would be like when you get to spend your whole life with that person you marry with?.. would i be happy by then?.. ARGH!

.. what the hell is wrong with me? yeah! i know i know! im still young to think such things.

why am i bothered with this?oh! oryt! i'm just bored. at least that's what i think it is.

but what if this is not just a product of weird thinking? what if i REALLY WANNA GET MARRIED! .... NOW! hahaha

ok! i better stop! i kno this bull ain't goin' nowhere :D =))

oh gahd! if only i could!

whaaa this isn't how i ussually roll ya'kno!
i ain't feelin' this shit!

i better shut dz fu*K up!

damn! i couldn't stop! haha i'm gettin' crazy dude! ok! chill girl chill :D
oh mayn! dunn evah think that i'm a retard =)
i'm just not in my sound mine ayt now.

you see? i told you i am random! tsktsktsk

ok enough with that nonsense :D

seriously,
i miss my bf =( and this i know's for sure.
i miss the time when he would just grab me then would hug me.
i miss us eating meals together.
i mis it when he used to tease me on how fat i am.(before obviously) LOL

how i wish we could do that again. =(
i wish everything's easy.

oh! sh*t! i remember the time when it was only a few hours left before he would leave phil.
i was crying so hard. my tears just didn't stop from falling.
my eyes were swollen red. he never stopped hugging me.
and..haaay those words. "i will come back for you.just keep on holding on.and wait for me."
those words had become my strength that time.

gahd! how i miss his hug =((

"His love is the only home i know"

ugh!
............................
ugh! i'm so so so missing him!

Friday, May 2, 2008

missing you

i miss having you beside me
i miss the feeling of having you near
i miss you be
i miss everything

It's had waking up everyday with the thought that you are so far away.
it hurts sleeping everynight not having you beside me.
and what kills me is that; there is really nothing else i can do but to cry and to cry in silence.

there hasn't been a time in my life that i stopped thinking about you.
you are a part of everything i do. you have always been a part of my everyday.
and having you in my mind for every second of my life has become the air that i breathe.
and it's like i wouldn't last a day without you.

i won't let our distance hinder us from this wonderful thing that we have.
i would never give you up no matter how hard things are for me.
i would take every risk and and chances there are just to have you forever.
for your love has made me stronger.

Friday, March 28, 2008

because of you and your love

when i'm tearin', and when i'm hurtin',

with just one word from you

every pain would simply vanish.

you touched my heart with so much gentleness,

u you took all my sorrows away,

you colored up my black and white world

you brought back the life that has been lost

with your love

i was born again.

and with your love,

i will grow.

with you and your love.

i LIVE.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

HIM

=.. BRYAN ..=

simply one of GOD's creatures.
a magnificent example,
to be sure
of the LORD's ability
to create perfection =)
i'm so loving him. mwah =)

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

BOY

BOY

boy i'm so in love with you.

that you multiplied my heart by two.

you're an addition to my happines,

a subtraction to my loniless.

boy i'm so happy you're mine.

for my love is an infinite as the points of a line.

you are the unknown of my love equation.

the only formula in my computation.

boy please allow me to love you,

and i'll never devide your heart in two.

i promise that our relationship will be fun.

with no hustles, just as easy as 1+1.

boy let's solve this problem for me.

we'll use the operations

and with you it will be easy.

so what is really the square root of 20449?

the answer is 143

and boy you're mine. =)



( we both don't like math hahaha... this was a poem from our teacher in math when i was still in 4th yeart high school.. i really enjoy reading this poem hahaha)

a story about a friend :(

i was in my high school days when i met this guy..
he was then a stranger to me..
not knowing he'd be one of the most important person in my life..

one day an unidentified celfone number reached me..
i asked who was it..
then he gave me his name..
iv found out that we're both in same school
so from then on we've been friends..
as time passed we've been the bestfriend of each other..

i could still remmber the time when he told me this line
"how can i forget u quen? when you are my only
bestfriend?"a qoute il never forget..a qoute i never knew i would
treasure my whole life..

after that..in just a blink of an eye..
evrything disappeared..
bcoz of his death that made me feel
empty even until now..

but i just want him to know
wherever he is ryt now..
that he'll always be my bestfriend
no matter how far we may be..

our memories are the only treasure
il be keeping here close to my heart..

i missed you J..

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

you mean everything to me

I LOVE YOU BEBEKOI :)

we've been together for many months now, and ever since then, i have always love you.

it was that time when i first heard your voice on the phone,
that made me want to know you more :) (the time when he asked me about my phone number while we were chatting, he called after that ) and from then on, i was slowly falling in love with you :)

the way you always make me laugh before tickles me inside.
you make my heart skip a beat everytime you make me smile :)
receiving your sweet messages touched my heart :)

and i will be thanking GOD forever for giving me the person,
that i'm gonna love for the rest of my life :)

my whole world revolves around you and only you.

you are my everything.
you complete my life.
again and again i want you to know that you're my life.

you are in every little thing that i wanted..

i will never(if you may) not let you go.

ILOVEYOU :)

an email i sent you =)

i can't sleep without hearing your voice even just for a while :( my day wouldn't be a day if without you)

there hasn't been a night that i can't cry :(
i hate myself for missing you so much everyday :(

we are barred by distance but i wouldn't let that be a hindrance of our relationship.

i really love you and i'll be keeping that forever.

i really needed a guy like you. u guy who's perfectly imperfect. and that's you :)

you have seen me at my absolute worst,
but still you accepted me for what and who i really am.
i have the saddest flaws on earth but still you've love me despite all that :)

just, thank you. for being that one person who taught me how to love.
i thought that what i felt before for everyone in my past was true and was love,
but i was wrong. i didn't realized that until you came.
you showed me what love really is all about :)

no matter where in the world you are,
always remember that i will be here for you.
no matter where we are,
keep in mind and keep it in your heart,
that i will be loving you forever...... across the sky..

.. we are still standing on the same moon above us ..

I LOVE YOU




Tuesday, March 4, 2008

shout out!!!!!!!!!!

it was a long time

deep into the heat of summer.

with the wild flowers dead,

and the garden meadows burned down

before i realized,

that i was loved =)

my shout out again muahahaha

i got shot by ur dirty trick.

too bad i cant get rid of it.

now im falling so deep.

oh boy u are all that i need.

bcoz of u, my life is complete.

i'm sooo into you bheybii =)

29 eber

Friday, February 29, 2008

shout it out! whaaaaaaaa

V A' ALL' INFERNO!!!

my tears burned,it overflooded my eyes.

soo trapped. can't breathe. =(

i have felt a mysterious malady.

&& so i sat down 2 see

if there is still a story worth telling,

a TRUTH worth revealing =(

my about me @ friendster hahaha

=.. QUENNIE EVE GRANADEROS CUARESMA ..=

=.. facinated and disappointed by LIFE(blown out candles): every 22nd day of MARCH ..=

=.. 18 turning 19 years grown ..=

...................................

=.. i love to groove. i love to move ..=

=.. best of my life was when I met him  ..=

=.. disclosed && uncloaked not for anyone else but for myself ..=

=.. I have everything && nothing at the same time ..=
(as complicated as it sounds)

=.. I CARE ABOUT DAYDREAMS && FANTASIES ..=

=.. ain’t dandy at all ..=

=.. i don't plot revenge.it's jz not me. i never keep grudges.i don't hate.i forget the people i'm supposed to hate ..=

=.. i laugh a lot, i cry a lot ..=

=.. a melancholic freak ..=

=.. a very shallow type of person, yet i'm way too deep to be understood ..=

=.. i am cynical about things sometimes(it helps though) ..=

=.. i ain't feeling like talking, connecting whenever i've got problems ..=

=.. people can avail me nothing now.everything's empty ..=

+.. my life = IL MIGLIORE ..+

..the best. the best of all the worst lives present on earth hahaha..

...................................
I AM JUST NOONE DUDE! NOONE!
...................................

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MY LIFE=MY EVERYTHING

=.. HE fills up the VOID in me ..=

=.. it has always been HIM. and it will always be HIM.
for life.. forever.. for eternity.. or even beyond it.. LOVE him so much! and it is one thing constant..(CHAARR :D ) ..=

=.. it sucks waiting. but i believe that it would be worth it in the end ..=

... IF YOU CAN'T HANDLE ME.. THEN LEAVE NOW ...

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

HURT

i know not what to do anymore.

i'm alive but i'm dead.
so dead.

it's like a slow and painful death.

i just wanna die immediately.

i can't bare this pain anymore.