Saturday, June 20, 2009

i wish..

i'm bothered...

how can you love someone so much but not liking the situation, the feeling, on how it grows so much in each and everyday that you're together?

i am afraid of what is happening. i am so scared to fall so much in love with him..
i don't want another broken heart, i don't want another heart ache.

i know I've been here so many times already.
problem with me is i never get used to this.
it will always feel like it's something new,when i know for a fact that it's not.

i could not anymore fathom this situation.
i wish i could teach my heart not to fall too much.
"hey! you should only love him up to there. you are not allowed to exceed"
i wish i could whisper that to my heart,and the heart would only follow what i want.

i love him,no doubt about it.
it's just that,i don't want to disappoint myself if ever things wont work out anymore..
I'm too selfish to think of this kind of possibilities i know,
i only want a normal relationship, "uyab-uyab lang sa, dili mag binuang pero dili sad kaayo seryoso" ana lang gud.. aron wala kaayo problema ba.. haay!
i wish i'm somebody, that i am another person, someone a little numb when it comes to love. i really wish i am someone like that...

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

because he loves me...

Because i can't contain it anymore, i have no choice but to spill everything here in my blog.. :)

i always find myself smiling lately.. yes! i am happy. and no words can ever explain how much happiness I'm feeling..
having him is like having everything.. you couldn't ask for anything else, because, he is more than enough.. :)
Lucky, you think? oh no! i'd rather say
I'm BLESSED... :)

i am not scared of what it is that will happen after all this bliss.. i am not afraid of what life could bring.. not anymore.. Because i know. he'll be with me..

times when I'm with him, i just want the clock to stop ticking.. i want the world to stop spinning, because i only wanna be with him..

he takes all my worries away.. tears could never even attempt to run down my cheeks because they know that there's someone who'd wipe them out even before they start to fall..

i want to live this way.. to live life with him.. it's all i want.. and he's all i need..