Sunday, May 24, 2009

good-bye's are not the end... :(

as i am facing this computer, constantly thinking of what just happened between me and Bryan, i was in doubt if i should write about this whole thing since many of you might read it...suddenly, i found myself hurting.. :(

we've been together in a relationship for almost 2 years(2 years this june,supposed to be).. and with that time that we had, we have been through a LOT. we've been through worsts.. oh! i'm goin' to rephrase that.. I've been through worst.. you might wanna ask why?... yeah! we had lots and lots of problems and honestly, i was the only one who strived hard to have those problems solved.. and guess what? i just realized that awhile ago :( ...

yeah yeah! of course he loved me, but he is just not that type of guy who'll help you get through to anything that comes in your way.. he is the kind that would just let you have it all in your own way until it gets solved.. we've gotten that far in our relationship, basically, because i fought for it.. ALONE! :(

untill one day, i got tired.. i had enough.. and i just don't feel like i still wanna try because, i just realized that; WE are partners.. we should be helping each other, be with each other specially during tough times.. but that never happened.. and that pains me... i denied the pain i felt all this time because i thought it could help.. but i was wrong.. and that made the wound worst.. it cuts deeper and deeper everytime.. and so i gave up..

it's never that easy to forget everything.. it didn't made me any stronger, it made me weaker instead..

those tears i shed, those laughters, those smiles, will be carved for always in my heart..
i'm sorry it didn't work out for us.. you will never be forgotten because you made great changes in my life.. and i owe you for that..

i'm so sorry..

thank you for everything....

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