that dream and my life

I had this dream when I found
Myself mingling with flesh-and-blood people
Where in my mind, the scene
Was a dreamlike fantasy
As people from another time and place
Glides around the dance floor,
Where I was standing.

It felt like I was in an
Aimless wander as I tried to grip the moment.
And I thought
I’ve reached my greatest desire.

But with just the wink of an eye
My afternoon sky had been suddenly
Obliterated by enormous cloud and sand
Instantly turning day into night.

It was a dream utterly unlike
Any dream I’ve dreamed before.
And it made me think of them
Who toppled me into this hellish
Paradise I’m in.
People who have forsaken my worth,
Who made my misery into agony.

And just I thought
I’ve been racing through the long nights,
Traveling over bumpy roads by moonlight.
I am exhausted.
But I could feel hope begin to creep into
My tired body.
I’m going to make it, I thought dully.
I’m going to make it.

People I thought were real are ghosts.
And yes! They were there.
They were a part of those years,
A part of my life
Yet on the dreadful side.