sad christmas :(

okay, it's already 1 am.. december 24, 2008.. DAMN! it's almost x'mas.. unfortunately, i almost didn't noticed it.. and i know for sure why..

haay how i wish i'd be able to spend it with bryan.. like before :(
yah yah, i know it's not possible.. he'll be home.. but not this christmas..
i'm feeling so lonely and sad.. :( never felt this kind of sadness before, swear!

i woke up with an aching heart. and i mean, physical pain. i woke up almost crying.. i'm so sad.. maybe i'm just missing him terribly :(
this isn't good but i need to face this!

on the brighter side..
i'm still thankful because we're ok now. :)
we were like fighting for almost a week straight and thank God the war's over..
:) for now maybe HAHA

ok. he loves me! =p i know right? :))
but i love him more. i swear i love you more than anything..