unforgettable.. really.. :]]

so so many things had happen today. i don't even know where to start now.LOL. ok so here it is.
i slept late yesterday so i woke up late. it was about 11 AM when i got up from bed. i checked on my phone and i still got no message, not even one, from my boyfriend. so yeah! initial reaction was: pissed!! but then initial remains initial. so i decided to just ignore it and then i took my shower. after that and everything, i checked again my phone, i and i sitll got nothing from him. so i chose to just calm myself down. then i lay back in bed again, and oh! my tears fell. GAHD! i am such a cry baby! i cry about petty things. DARN! but hey! it's all because me and my boyfriend already planned that we will meet today, and i thought he couldn't make it so thats why i felt bad.LOL then my phone beeped! i excitedly reached for my phone to see who it's from(the message). so yah i was happy to know that it was from my boyfriend, and there it said that he's coming. so yeah! my mood changed! and i was happy again :]] HAHA praning!. oh! he told me he was with his mother. his mother went to the bank and then went to the grocery store. then he or they, because he's with his brother.. they went into our house. then...... this happened.. that happened.. and haha i was so damn laughing when his brother.. a 21 year-old guy called me "ate" HAHA we were all like laughing! i really felt awkward because i am 2 years younger than his brother hahaha. so yah! haha then... his brother had to go somewhere so he was left with me.we chat, we laugh, and he was always teasing me. always! ugh! but it's alryt haha i find it sweet though LOLOL.

as we were chatting outside our house, i let him see the rosary necklace that he gave me last sunday.. we both have the same rosary necklace. so yeah! i handed it to him and he was saying this (baylo ta, ako suoton ning imo. dal-a na permi hah? aron naay mobantay nimo) "let's swap our necklaces, you keep mine, ill wear yours. you take it anywhere you'll go ok? so that you'll have someone to watch ove you".. (serious..sincere..sweet)

i was so touched.. i felt like crying but ofcourse i didn't :))))))

then he went home. his brother fetch him. i thought that was it. but then............

suddenly my phone beeped again. it's from my boyfriend. he wants me to go to this certain mall because i thought he'll just have to buy something and he wanted me to acompany him. he even told me not to change clothes anymore because i was only wearing shorts, t-shirt, and flip flops. so yeah i immediately hurried myself to go to where he is.
then....
the truth was.. "i am just about to be introduced to his mother" DAMMIT! LOL i was like OMG! i am not in my proper clothes haha but then i can't do anything anymore because i was already there. so yah! i just have to deal with it!..

while meeting his mother i was like a kid hiding on my daddy's back haha i really was so shy talking to his mother. ugh! but that was just it.. his mother's nice. hehe SHE looked so damn CLASSY.. and i looked like A DAMN MESS haha

but then again, i was thankful, because finally, i get to meet his mother. i am happy. and until now, the smile just never fade. i love my boyfriend so much.

all these things that happened today just proves that i am important to him and that he loves me.
i really am so happy. so happy. so so happy.
i won't and will never ever forget this day. it's one of the best days of my life.
thank you so much bryan! for the love and for eveything.
thank you Lord for all of these. for everything.

feelings :] ♥

I love him. I love him to death. I love him now. I love him always. I love him ‘till end.

yah! I know what ya’ll may think. You may say that “hey! You’re still too young and it’s still too early” for me to say something like this. BOO! The hell I care! What can I do? It’s how and it’s what I definitely feel for him right now. At least for now I guess. I know: “nothing lasts forever”. But as what they say, every rule has its exemption right? LOL! Ugh! I don’t know. I have never really believed in forever. Shoot! Yes! BEFORE! So… yeah?? I guess I do now?? Maybe?? Ugh! WTF! I dunn wanna expect. I dunn wanna assume either! I might just get disappointed right? But! GAHD! I don’t know what’s these all about. Maybe I am just falling head over heels for him. GAHD! I never felt anything like this to anyone at all before! GAHD! I always wanted this to happen. And now it’s here. I just wanna embrace it, just enjoy it and just love it. This is like the best catch! I just want all of these to be like close to perfect if not really perfect ya’kno! Reality check: nothing’s perfect. So yeah!

I don’t feel like letting go. Ta fcuk! Who said about letting go? LOL. I won’t! never!

I believe some things are worth fighting for. So I guess this is it??
Wish me luck?? HAHA

Point is! HEY DUDE!

I’m IN LOVE.

No words can ever define how I just feel right now. It’s worth more than every word I could say, and more than anything I could do.

“no words need to be utter, no actions need to be done”

How we feel for each other. It is what’s important!

LOVE daw for me hmmm

LOVE?

well i've got my own opinion about it!

Love for me is simply the best reason and the only reason for EVERYTHING

the reason for our happiness,as well as the reason of our sadness, and our pains.

and most of all? the reason of our LIFE. why we live and how we live is all because of love!
love for your family,for your friends,for your boy/girlfriends, even the love for your work and et cetera .

LOVE.. is a mystery. it is the most wonderful and at the same time unpredictable feeling you'll ever feel. (i sometimes define love as (the most joyful sadness)
wonderful? why ask? DANG! ya'll know how life is when u'r in love right?..
but love is unpredictable. because,
one day it's here, the next day.. GONE.(depende lang naman cguro LOL)
and that just proves that everything is subject to change. because
"the only constant thing in this world is CHANGE"

the only thing you have to know is that
"know how to embrace LOVE when it arrives, and LEARN how to let go when it chooses to LEAVE"

i mean, we can't controll SOME of the things in life. and that "SOME things" there includes LOVE.
yeah! most people find it hard to understand these things..myself included. it really takes a lot of courage for you to ya'kno, LEARN how to ACCEPT the realities of LOVE and the realities of LIFE. (i'm not saying that i've already accepted everything,maybe i am able to say all these things because i already learned,and someone just taught me about this, but really, it's not that easy to accept things when you know it's all that you ever wanted and for some reasons no one can explain, it would just leave you hangin'.. ryt?)(i mean for some)

it's really hard but i think you'll be able to accept everything.in time.(it really takes time)

my own experience. oh haha
you may call me stupid,or dumb or whatever it is that you wanna call me, i don't really care.
i don't even care how long we won't be able to see each other. or how far we are from each other. i'm sill gonna wait you know. because when you love a person, no matter how hard things are, no matter how difficult your situation is, you are willing to accept or lemme say, you always find ways on to how you can accept everything.
ok i always tell him(my bf) this line.

"I'VE ALREADY ACCEPTED EVERYTHING THAT COULDN'T BE, AND I STILL LOVE YOU FREELY"

i have too much drama going on in here haha

lastly,
LOVE is LOVE
you just gotta learn how to deal with it. i mean, you really can't complain.
everything happens for a reason.atleast that's what i believe =D

i got hit byt this

FUNNY HOW THE WORLD SEEMS SO SMALL WHEN YOU GET TO CONTACT YOUR LOVED ONE HALFWAY AROUND THE WORLD THROUGH LETTERS, TEXTS, CHAT, E-MAILS, OR PHONE CALLS..

BUT

STILL THE WORLD IS THAT BIG
BECAUSE
THERE IS NO SUBSTITUTE FOR PERSONAL CONVERSATIONS,
HOLDING HANDS,
HUGS, AND OCCASIONAL KISSES.

i miss him

random thoughts

my thoughts are going random.

i think i have this HUGE problem.(which, who knows what it is) LOL.
it's been almost 2 or 3 weeks that i never stopped wasting my time facing this fuckin' computer.
i haven't eaten right for the past weeks. fortunately, that made me loss my weight. which is a good thing 'coz we'll be going to the beach this thursday(i can now wear bikinis without worrying about my flabs :D if i can though! LOL).. thursday! oh! that would be my parents wedding anniversary.

.. and i got myself into this thought:

I WANNA know how it feels like to get married. what life would be like when you get to spend your whole life with that person you marry with?.. would i be happy by then?.. ARGH!

.. what the hell is wrong with me? yeah! i know i know! im still young to think such things.

why am i bothered with this?oh! oryt! i'm just bored. at least that's what i think it is.

but what if this is not just a product of weird thinking? what if i REALLY WANNA GET MARRIED! .... NOW! hahaha

ok! i better stop! i kno this bull ain't goin' nowhere :D =))

oh gahd! if only i could!

whaaa this isn't how i ussually roll ya'kno!
i ain't feelin' this shit!

i better shut dz fu*K up!

damn! i couldn't stop! haha i'm gettin' crazy dude! ok! chill girl chill :D
oh mayn! dunn evah think that i'm a retard =)
i'm just not in my sound mine ayt now.

you see? i told you i am random! tsktsktsk

ok enough with that nonsense :D

seriously,
i miss my bf =( and this i know's for sure.
i miss the time when he would just grab me then would hug me.
i miss us eating meals together.
i mis it when he used to tease me on how fat i am.(before obviously) LOL

how i wish we could do that again. =(
i wish everything's easy.

oh! sh*t! i remember the time when it was only a few hours left before he would leave phil.
i was crying so hard. my tears just didn't stop from falling.
my eyes were swollen red. he never stopped hugging me.
and..haaay those words. "i will come back for you.just keep on holding on.and wait for me."
those words had become my strength that time.

gahd! how i miss his hug =((

"His love is the only home i know"

ugh!
............................
ugh! i'm so so so missing him!

missing you

i miss having you beside me
i miss the feeling of having you near
i miss you be
i miss everything

It's had waking up everyday with the thought that you are so far away.
it hurts sleeping everynight not having you beside me.
and what kills me is that; there is really nothing else i can do but to cry and to cry in silence.

there hasn't been a time in my life that i stopped thinking about you.
you are a part of everything i do. you have always been a part of my everyday.
and having you in my mind for every second of my life has become the air that i breathe.
and it's like i wouldn't last a day without you.

i won't let our distance hinder us from this wonderful thing that we have.
i would never give you up no matter how hard things are for me.
i would take every risk and and chances there are just to have you forever.
for your love has made me stronger.